If it’s your dream if it’s your desire and it’s a very strong desire go for it you think you’ve done something really good and then you see the end product and you think if I done this or I’d have done that or if only I’d have asked that question the result might have been different [Music] it’s always the money side that’s what makes you doubt it like it’s difficult to find regular work and then even if you find regular work it’s not often very well-paid so we prioritize TV stuff over short film right yeah and he’s got a TV keep this weekend so we’re sorry but he won’t be available I could do a job where I get paid the same thing every month.
I probably wouldn’t get anything new I would learn something new I wouldn’t meet new people every day whereas in this job I cat is this just about money why are you wanting a great product but you know but the end of the day both fucked that off I could be more bossing I should have got into this 40 years ago so I took it all on myself I ended up with a splitting headache the next day I was back there who are ready to start again we’re now in the sensible route of getting a proper you know profession and yeah something was always missing it’s an addiction to me and if I spend the rest of my life doing it and don’t make a success of it well at least.
I can say I died try 10 minutes on a good day filmmaking is the source of so much joy and purpose in my life but just as often it’s got me pulling my hair out dreading what’s next then regretting whatever I did last week EEP trying and we keep failing but we keep learning and somehow we keep going you what you just watched is a new thing I’m trying thanks to the first anchor Film Festival who sponsored this video and made that whole project happen basically they asked me to let you know about their short film festival that has a cash prize of 1000 pounds so if you’d like to use that as an extra incentive to go out and have this crazy experience that is making a short film then the deadline is the 10th of December and I’ll put the rest of the details in a link in the description but either way I’ll see you next week when we get into the making of this whole project.